As a “sugar baby” in this circle, I have a unique emotional preference and often fall into deep entanglement and thinking.
I found that I have a special fetish for older men. This emotion is not just based on the common pursuit of material interests in the relationship between “sugar babies” and “sugar daddies”, but comes from the appreciation and admiration of mature male charm in my heart. However, it is not easy to reveal this to my “sugar daddy” or potential “sugar daddy” (POT).
In this circle, there seems to be a conventional cognition. As I have observed, “sugar daddies” often think that young girls are willing to establish relationships with them just to get the so-called “sugar”, that is, generous material gifts, and in terms of sex, young girls are more tolerant. But for me, the situation is completely different. I really enjoy the material support I get as a “sugar baby”, and I am also truly attracted by the unique charm exuded by older men. This attraction is not disguised, but comes from the real feelings deep in my heart.
I have tried to disclose my feelings to sugar daddies several times. Some of these experiences have left me confused. Some sugar daddies seem to find it difficult to understand young women like me once they go beyond their pre-set standards of catering to the material. Perhaps in their minds, young girls are just getting what they want from them, and there won’t be much real emotional investment. When I tried to express that I was really attracted to them, not just for the “sugar”, they seemed to be unable to accept it because they were not used to this situation. I couldn’t help but wonder if this was because they had been in this traditional cognitive framework for a long time and found it difficult to break away, or because they were uncomfortable with such unexpected emotional expressions?
I remember once, during an in-depth conversation with a potential sugar daddy, we talked about each other’s expectations for this relationship. At that time, the atmosphere was quite harmonious, and I mustered up the courage to carefully mention my special emotional preference for older men. I tried to make him understand in a gentle and sincere way that I was with him not only for the material support he could give, but also for his mature and steady temperament. However, his reaction was beyond my expectation. He frowned slightly, a hint of doubt flashed in his eyes, and then began to change the subject, as if he wanted to avoid this topic. At that moment, I felt as if I had touched a certain cordon deep in his heart and broke a certain balance that he had always believed in.
Another time, when chatting with a “sugar daddy” who had established a certain relationship, I tried to reveal this again. I talked in detail about my appreciation of his personal charm and how this appreciation made me feel more emotionally satisfied in this relationship. He listened quietly, but his expression seemed a little uncomfortable. Afterwards, although he did not directly reject my expression, in the subsequent interactions, I clearly felt that he became a little deliberately keeping a distance, as if he had an instinctive resistance to my real emotional expression.
I couldn’t help but reflect on whether there was a problem with my way of expression? Or is it that this inherent cognition in this circle is so deeply rooted that my true feelings are difficult to be accepted. Perhaps, in the eyes of “sugar daddies”, young girls should follow the traditional model and maintain a balance between superficial material transactions and emotional indifference. And my attempt to break the rules and show my true emotional preferences makes them feel at a loss.
But I also think that everyone has the right to express their true feelings. I don’t want to suppress my true feelings for fear of being misunderstood or rejected. I long to be truly understood and accepted in this relationship, not just as a “sugar baby” who accepts material gifts, but also as an individual with real emotional needs.
Perhaps, I need to be more patient in finding the right time and way to convey my ideas. For example, after establishing a deeper foundation of trust with the “sugar daddy”, I can express it step by step. I can share some small things in life to let him understand my values and emotional world more deeply, and then naturally lead to my special emotional preference for older men. Or maybe, I should try to think from their perspective, understand why they resist such emotional expression, and then communicate in a way that they can accept more.
In this challenging and confusing process, I know that I am facing many uncertainties. But I still hope that through continuous attempts and efforts, I can find a way to make “sugar daddies” understand my true feelings, so that our relationship can be built on a more real and mutual understanding. After all, in this special emotional field, I believe that sincerity and understanding are the key to opening each other’s hearts. Although this road may be full of twists and turns, I am willing to work hard to explore it.
